The Psychic Donut: Why I Always Know and Why It’s Not Magic
Let me say something that sounds completely batshit crazy. I can walk into a room and know within seconds who is lying, who is dangerous, who doesn’t belong, and who […]
Sleepers: On Being Awake in a World That Prefers Not to Be
I used to call them sleepers. Not to their faces, even I know when to keep my mouth shut. But in my head, long before the Matrix made the metaphor […]
Neurodivergence and Medication: The Sleep Chapter
If you read my earlier post about Venlafaxine (Effexor), you’ll know that it genuinely changed my life. The panic attacks stopped. The anxiety went away. My old, happy self came […]
Still Looking for Home: A Neurodivergent Professional’s Journey
I read something this week that made me cry. Not the polite, dignified kind of crying. The kind that catches you off guard at 10am on a Friday, sitting […]
The Control Freak Label: Perfectionism, Imposter Syndrome and the AuDHD Brain
In my last post I wrote about the difference between autism rituals, compulsion and OCD. But there is one more label that tends to follow people like me around, […]
Ritual, Order and the Chaos in Between: AuDHD and the Compulsion Question
Let me tell you about my bookshelf. The books are organised by height, tallest on the left, shortest on the right. They have been organised this way for as […]
Going Off the Rails on a Crazy Train: My AuDHD Morning Routine
Every morning, Nana Mouskouri arrives the moment I open the blinds. “Guten Morgen Sonnenschein” firing up in my brain like an alarm clock nobody asked for, and stays for however […]
The Stare: On Gifts That Don’t Have a Name Yet
Recently I had a conversation that lasted an hour and a half and felt like five minutes with another fraud fighter. We met briefly at a professional event about […]
AI Doesn’t Write For Me. It Finally Lets Me Be Heard.
I was called “Judas” when I was five years old. My mother called me Judas. We were leaving the house and ran into a friendly neighbor who asked where we […]
AuDHD and the Music That Never Stops
As I write this, I am humming “The Funk Soul Brother” by Fatboy Slim. I have been humming it for five days. I did not choose this. I was not […]