The Control Freak Label: Perfectionism, Imposter Syndrome and the AuDHD Brain
In my last post I wrote about the difference between autism rituals, compulsion and OCD. But there is one more label that tends to follow people like me around, […]
Ritual, Order and the Chaos in Between: AuDHD and the Compulsion Question
Let me tell you about my bookshelf. The books are organised by height, tallest on the left, shortest on the right. They have been organised this way for as […]
Going Off the Rails on a Crazy Train: My AuDHD Morning Routine
Every morning, Nana Mouskouri arrives the moment I open the blinds. “Guten Morgen Sonnenschein” firing up in my brain like an alarm clock nobody asked for, and stays for however […]
The Stare: On Gifts That Don’t Have a Name Yet
Recently I had a conversation that lasted an hour and a half and felt like five minutes with another fraud fighter. We met briefly at a professional event about […]
AI Doesn’t Write For Me. It Finally Lets Me Be Heard.
I was called “Judas” when I was five years old. My mother called me Judas. We were leaving the house and ran into a friendly neighbour who asked where we […]
AuDHD and the Music That Never Stops
As I write this, I am humming “The Funk Soul Brother” by Fatboy Slim. I have been humming it for five days. I did not choose this. I was not […]
AuDHD and Sleep: The Brain That Never Powers Down
Let me start with a confession: I am not entirely sure I know what “asleep” feels like. I go to bed. I close my eyes. And my brain, apparently […]
AuDHD and Time Part 2: Parallel Universes, Disappearing Acts and the Camera in My Head
Let me paint you a picture. I am sitting in a meeting. Someone is talking. To all external appearances, I am present – eye contact, appropriate nodding, the occasional […]
AuDHD and Time Part 1: Life as an Efficiency Machine
Let me ask you something. When you walk from one room to another, do you just… walk there? Empty handed? One trip, one purpose? I cannot fathom this. Every […]
AuDHD, Relationships and the Art of Being Chronically Misunderstood
There is a particular kind of loneliness that comes not from being alone, but from being consistently misread by the people around you. From trying your hardest to connect, […]