What does it feel like to have a brain that runs at 500 mph and never stops? What does it feel like not to be able to control your emotions or impulses, to have too much empathy, and to not be able to keep your mouth shut when you should? What is it like to perceive the world as one huge, extremely loud, overwhelming, endless barrage of sights and sounds? What is it like to be so overwhelmed by the world that you no longer want to be in it? What is it like to be constantly (mis)judged, attacked, questioned, or doubted because you behave, think, and act differently?
What is it like to feel that you are crazy, that there is something seriously wrong with you, that you never belong or fit in, and that you might just be a bad person? What happens when one day your brain explodes and you simply break?

In 2024 and 2025, I was officially diagnosed as AuDHD. In addition, I am also an HSP (highly sensitive person), which cannot be tested yet.

Living with AuDHD, a co-occurrence of autism and ADHD, as well as hypersensitivity, means experiencing a unique interplay where these neurotypes interact, overlap, and can even contradict each other, leading to significant impacts on both personal life and societal interactions. This blog follows my challenges, triumphs, and battles with ADHD, hypersensitivity, and autism, reflecting this complex reality